Being "Human being"

I m just a weak human being.. With some help with god and friends, i m useless.. Just a dump piece of creature.. Am i really need to stay survive for some aim?? I cant even find what i aim for in life. Just wanted to become a great photographer, a simple creature with happiness...


am i my aim as a photographer? capture moment of happiness, sadness, joy, sorrow, feeling, future, past, memories??

am i just a junk? i just wanted to love and beloved.. Is that easy? or difficult?

am or i just think too much? feel too much?

am i just want something change in my life, i can't hardly live in this kind of feeling anymore..


on one morning, my mum asked for money and its a lot for my sister education fees.. i been thinking of money lately, wanted my sister for a better future, my parent to be less worry about finance problem.
am i just driving and think...am i a best solution for all this financial problem? It is my "gone" will be best choices? Just my insurance death fees will cover all my family living? am i worth for it? i just want a way to be simple and easy living.. a normal prefect life,

In my life, i always wanted to be prefect, angles, arts, sales, personality, cares, management..but i'm imprefect human being that wanted to be prefect in all field..

a prefect photo by me, so far i wanted to create a prefect picture with great feelings...