2010 uh?

What life really is?
What we do to live?
What make us to survive?

Well.. Darrel's Uncle told me that we going out working is looking "what really live is about?"
its not about experience or what..! It about how to face toward people around you and customer too.. and their behavior..

I was just wanted to quit my currently work but..
The Boss tell this again..
In a life, we face to face to every kind of people with different attitude, behavior and their story line too.. But the most important we act as customer as out close frenz and treat them as one too..
My Boss tell that we must face the problem we facing it rather than avoid it now.. or else we will continue avoid it and never learn from the mistake..

I still dunno what i going to do about it..
I'm so confuse??
Is it the life i looking for??
Staying and working only??
No entertainment?
No joy?
No relax?
Only looking for money only?
WAD??!!

But this song relax my mind..

But this year i must face my problem instate of running away from it..!
I need a reason to survive and live..
Don't worry..
I'm fine..!
Thanks..

JUST KILL ME..!

"The Kill"

What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do? (Oh, oh)
What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take all this anymore
What would you do, do, do?

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you

What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for?
I'm not running from you (from you)

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside.
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance.
I know now, this is who I really am.

Ah, ah
Oh, oh
Ah, ah

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you, you, you.
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

Come break me down (bury me, bury me)
Break me down (bury me, bury me)
Break me down (bury me, bury me)

(You say you wanted more)
What if I wanted to break...?
(What are you waiting for?)
Bury me, bury me
(I'm not running from you)
What if I
What if I
What if I
What if I
Bury me, bury me

one word

One word for today..!!
Its HURT..!

I dunno why but its HURT..!!
HURT~~~


i still confuse with the love around me now..
and i dunno what to do with it..
either i strike it or not??
still blur...
blur...

BLUR..!!

and...

FUCK YOU LAR..!!


confuse with love now.. haiz...

Mode:

emo..
lonely..
alone..
crazy..
wan die now...

Linebarrels of Iron

Linebarrels of Iron represent....

Vardant..!!

the anime..
&
its model...

and i'm planning to but it next year 2010..!! cost me RM170..!! expensive but worth it.. XD

love it.
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Wow...
the pass really fast uh??
No time to sleep..
No time to play..
No time to slack..
No time to online..
But all was a bull shit lor...

I having quite fun this last 3 weekend here.. rushing for final project here and there..
Friday i have Com studies presentation for a poster..

our poster (Neko,Kee,Vin and me)

and next week..
Design studies and creative studies presentation and submition already..
OMG..!!!!

Canvas haven't finish lor..
Design 80% done..
Life drawing killing me lor..
ARG...!!!

Gambatehu lor..
Panda eye this few weeks..
XD

Silent

" People will forget what you said. People will forget what you did. But, people will NEVER forget how you made them feel."

But it make me feel what they feel for something..
A quick silent moment..

Every movement i have make has make realize what has really happen in the pas few life..

A "SILENT" word that refer to me now..

dull in silent movement...

Don't worry about me..
I'm alright..

My existent

Why do i exist??
I have been thinking of this answer on my hostel roof and suddenly i got it..

My classmate suddenly came up the hostel roof and i was surprised..
ad i suddenly got the answer in my mind..

Let me be a part of unforgotten memories in everyone life i met while i still exist..

The answer changed me a lot now..

Sorry of my past life now...
Welcome to my new life..